i would forget my head if it weren't on my shoulders.

i have my first day of class tommorow. i hope that i have everything, i'll probably forget something knowing me. i feel like i'm forgetting to do something right now. this sucks. i forgot to buy a backpack to keep everything in. i'll have to shove everything in my backpack that's already on my wheelchair. i also don't know if i have a written excuse for having a tape recorder in my class. i need a recorder because of my short term memory which is an effect of my brain injury. i don't want to get there and be sitting there and need something important that i forgot. i need to have an optimistic attitude about classes though, i won't get anywhere with a discouraged attitude.
i have physical therapy tommorow morning for my neck. i hope that my neck isn't moving back out of place, sometimes it feels like it is. i find it strange that they didn't give me a brace for my neck to wear after i had the surgery. i see a lot of other patients in the clinic rolling around in their wheelchairs with neck braces on (they might have worse conditions though). they can't say that i never asked if i needed to wear a brace because i did. it feels like i should be wearing one at night (at least). i don't want to go through surgery again. dr. shuh was suggesting botox but i've had botox shots in my neck before (it was a while ago but i still had botox shots in my neck a few times before) and it obviously didn't last because i still needed to have surgery (even after the botox). i still have to go in for more physical therapy, so my neck might get stronger and straighten itself out. only time will tell.